My friend asked why I ain’t a music person. Like how often she can get into my car and not have anything playing in the background.
I suppose I just don’t have that kind of inclination? That could help in explaining why I never dreamed of being a popstar or celebrity singer. Not that I’m ever regretting it. I picked up a lot of instruments along the way but I just never have the patience to sit it through the stages of eventually playing without mistakes.
When I thought of a reason to explain, I found this spilling out of me… That the songs I like to listen to are songs very meaningful in lyric, slow and tend to slight towards being emo. I’ve had a tiring day and such songs won’t help because they bring back memories I do not want recalled most of the time. They make me sad that those seemed so long ago and far away; that my youth is fading away even though those memories could be wonderful ones.
Ok time to go to bed. No more songs before they make me cry!
And Happy Birthday Bro! Can’t believe that I needed FB to remind me of your birthday this year, work has really taken a toll on my memory lately!
Put your iPod on shuffle: 1st ten songs that play.
Akon – Belly Dancer ***
张信哲 – 太想爱你 *****
Ace of Base – C’est La Vie **
Gareth Gates – Say It Isn’t So ****
Brian McFadden – Irish Son ***
Green Day – Time Of Your Life ****
Pink – Runaway *
Lynn Anderson – You Don’t Have To Say You Love Me *
Aaron Goldberg – OAM’s Blues**
Akon & Young Jeezy – Soul Survivor (Remix) *
*****Might become one of those I put on repeat
****Would listen when the mood calls for it
***Listenable but won’t deliberately pick it like the ***** & ****
**Will not listen to it if I can choose but tolerable
*Don’t ever want to listen to it ever!
Songs you listen to when you’re Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
My mood doesn’t control the songs I listen to. The songs I listen to control the mood I will be in. Hence I will do this a little differently.
Songs that makes me happy, sad, bored, hyped, mad.
Happy – I don’t listen to songs when I am happy either because most of my songs are emo’ songs and I often would end up feeling sad. I know. Weird.
Bored – I don’t really listen to songs when I am bored. I’ll have them playing in the background but I’ll be multitasking to actually be listening to the lyrics of it.
Mad – Never. Only people who behave rudely and ungraciously do.
Hyped – La Camisa or the Ketchup song. Spanish always have that effect on me.
Sad – 情非得以, 解脱, 再见. I’ve linked 再见 below. It is a song that I have planned to play at my funeral. I never thought funeral should have slow sad songs. At least not for mine.
It seems like a recent phenomena for the 87ers to get married or plan to get married this year.
My FB news feed seems bombarded with news and new photo updates of my female friends property viewing experiences, their food tasting for wedding dinner experiences, their wedding photos…
It dawned on me that none of them are from co-aid schools. I am not being biased here because 50% of these happy ladies are not friends from my Primary or Secondary school.
Despite the idea that somewhat lingers in my mind that guys would prefer to marry girls not from all girls school, friends around me have proved otherwise.
I attribute it to the maturity level of girls educated in an all girls school; being more matured, they choose guys older and hence are more ready to settle down. All the “case scenarios” around me appear so at least.
I see more boyfriends going down on one knees in the months that lead to 2012. I’m envious of them for being so daring. I may be gutsy in all areas but this is one where I will never learn to truly let go without the fear of falling and failing. I’m happy because one by one, I am seeing Cinderella’s story come to life; and they lived happily ever after.
I have always loved the story of the Little Mermaid because of my love for the waters. Also, it seemed like the least loved story compared to Cinderella, Snow White, Beauty & the Beast…
Today, I figured another reason to like this, this story could be a true reflection of my life; I will not have a prince who will go around to find the one who fits the glass slippers because I do not believe I am that fortunate and I will not love a beast in the first place even though he is nice because I am superficial but I will have to be truly fearless and give up my “voice” for “legs” to find my prince charming.
Meanwhile, enjoy my favorite childhood song: Under the Sea
The seaweed is always greener
In somebody else’s lake
You dream about going up there
But that is a big mistake
Just look at the world around you
Right here on the ocean floor
Such wonderful things surround you
What more is you lookin’ for?
Under the sea
Under the sea
Darling it’s better
Down where it’s wetter
Take it from me
Up on the shore they work all day
Out in the sun they slave away
While we devotin’
Full time to floatin’
Under the sea
Down here all the fish is happy
As off through the waves they roll
The fish on the land ain’t happy
They sad ’cause they in their bowl
But fish in the bowl is lucky
They in for a worser fate
One day when the boss get hungry
Guess who’s gon’ be on the plate
Under the sea
Under the sea
Nobody beat us
Fry us and eat us
In fricassee
We what the land folks loves to cook
Under the sea we off the hook
We got no troubles
Life is the bubbles
Under the sea
Under the sea
Since life is sweet here
We got the beat here
Naturally
Even the sturgeon an’ the ray
They get the urge ‘n’ start to play
We got the spirit
You got to hear it
Under the sea
The newt play the flute
The carp play the harp
The plaice play the bass
And they soundin’ sharp
The bass play the brass
The chub play the tub
The fluke is the duke of soul
(Yeah)
The ray he can play
The lings on the strings
The trout rockin’ out
The blackfish she sings
The smelt and the sprat
They know where it’s at
An’ oh that blowfish blow
Under the sea
Under the sea
When the sardine
Begin the beguine
It’s music to me
What do they got? A lot of sand
We got a hot crustacean band
Each little clam here
know how to jam here
Under the sea
Each little slug here
Cuttin’ a rug here
Under the sea
Each little snail here
Know how to wail here
That’s why it’s hotter
Under the water
Ya we in luck here
Down in the muck here
Under the sea
JOLIN IN THE HOUSE
DT(David Tao) IN THE HOUSE
JOLIN IN THE HOUSE
DT(David Tao) IN THE HOUSE
COME JOLIN IN THE HOUSE
DT(David Tao) IN THE HOUSE
OUR LOVE IN THE HOUSE
LIfe is so amazing… I was listening to my songs on shuffle and the second song after the first song I choose today was this 今天你要嫁给我. It just HAD to be this of all songs in my library? It brought my mind back to the conversation we had yesterday. We learnt that another of my secondary 1/2 classmate is in the midst of planning her wedding. Her boyfriend hadn’t proposed but they had talked about it and are planning to buy a flat together. Momentarily, I reflected on how my girlfriends are so capable and attractive in their own ways yet none of us are attached or close to heading down this lane. I made a mental note to introduce the eligible bachelors I will know to them someday.
When I watched the episode of 康熙来了 where 黑人 and 范玮琪（范范）appeared on TV together for the first time since they were together 10 years ago, I felt so touched. After 10 years of being together, often the relationships that doesn’t end up in a marriage before will head no where but the pits so it was indeed touching that they ended up committing to the rest of their lives together. In the case as with many, it seemed like if they hadn’t experienced a life and death together, they’d not have been able to take this step forward. Despite the 10 years (see video below) she is still shy about holding his hands in public… I truly wish them and all who are getting married the best. 要幸福！
I suddenly thought of my primary school teacher rather randomly. Being in front of the computer, I conveniently googled her name.
“Dorothy Tan CHIJ Toa Payoh”
At the back of my mind, I didn’t think I’d be successful because its unlikely that she still has links with the school given how teachers are rotated around schools. Also, she has a pretty common name; not like those Chinese names one would have.
Turns out, she is still with the school. My mind brought me back to those school days memories… We were reprimanded whenever we lifted our skirts to straighten our shirt from under the pinafore. We were reprimanded to stop running along corridors. We were made to pray in the morning, before and after we eat and before we depart from school.
Most specifically with her… I recalled her cubicle filled with anything related to pigs. I recalled how nice she was to me. At this point, I wish to pay her a visit. Should I? I wonder if she even has the slightest recollection of me.
In the meanwhile, I shall leave you with the school song I had sang in front of the school for the last two years of my primary school life.
Forward CHIJ, forge a future bright
Advancing our aims with zeal and might.
Guide us in our studies, oh Lord, we pray;
Wisdom, courage and charity,
Strengthen in us each day!
Solidly united in our motto sound
Simple in Virtue,
Strong in duty bound!
Loyal to our isle we will ever be,
Defending and serving our country.
Noble in ambition, thought, word and deed;
Rally round CHIJ,
We will strive to succeed!
Solidly united in our motto sound
Simple in Virtue,
Strong in duty bound!
Can’t quite recall where I saw the trailer that made me want to watch this movie, maybe I didn’t. It could just be the poster that attracted me. How it is symmetrical yet asymmetrical, and it is in the colour my brain is currently tuned to for detection of sophistication – black & white with a tinge of pink (or any other colour in my dressing) to make the otherwise monotonous presentation stands out.
My initial plan was to get the Christina-Aguilera-crazy-Serena to go with me. I know she’d not reject but turns out, LI wanted to watch it too so I went along, yes on a Monday! We had our cheese hotdog (which I must say is quite good) whilst watching the film relieving the good ole secondary-after-school days.
In the film, Christina Aguilera’s vocal was impressive; something I had ignored because I was a Britney fan. Her dance steps made me want to ooze similar sex appeal if anyone is willing to teach. Not funny, I’m perfectly serious. And to top it up (like any other moral of the story) I made a silent promise to myself at the end of the film to strive for that intensity in my passion. With that I’m sure to be able to live my big dreams.
Meanwhile, I’m going to try find the soundtrack for this…
Rod Stewart I can tell by your eyes that you’ve probably been crying forever And the stars in the sky don’t mean nothing to you they’re a mirror
I don’t wanna talk about it How you broke my heart If I stay here just a little bit longer If I stay here won’t you listen to my heart
Oh oh my heart
If I stand all alone will the shadows hide the colours of my heart blue for tears, black for the night fears the stars in the sky don’t mean nothing to you they’re a mirror
I don’t wanna talk about it How you broke my heart If I stay here just a little bit longer If I stay here won’t you listen to my heart Oh oh my heart
Heard this song over the ipod on my way home yesterday. It tugged on my heartstrings and thought of sharing. Perfect for sitting at the balcony of MBS and admiring the night lights of Singapore, with a cigar on one hand and red wine in another.
After a rather lengthy talk with LI in the car last night, I suddenly thought of that afternoon when Andy was crooning this at his place and had put this song on repeat the whole day. Yes pretty crazy.
Just read Cass’s entry on her new year resolution, and coupled with the reminder of the news Juls dropped a month ago, I am beginning to wonder if I should be more active than my current passive state or that I should stick with the resolution I told myself I’ll make in 2011 which would put me on the same route as Cass. I guess all these years, he has been my eye candy merely to spice up my life. I have unfortunately not been able to find a suitable replacement. He is on the flight back at the moment and I have told LI that I will be passive and if it leads to something I’ll regret, so be it because right now, I don’t have the energy to pluck up the courage I need to commit to someone.
